nine parts of Desire!! :D

More like nine parts of Disaster...!!!!!

I didn't bring the new year on a good note...

I wasn't well.. Cold, cough, fever, body ache and eye infection.

DAMAGE: I didn't give the Maths 5 paper today. More like, one KT free with the new year.. *sigh*
Depressing isn't it?? I mean I studied for it and then mid way through realised that it is just not gonna happen.. A big blow to my much anticipated KT free year.. *Sighs louder* yes, i have been depressed about this for the last couple of days.

New year came and went, all it left behind, etched behind a wall of tears was the loss of hope.

DAMAGE: Joel left today for UK. i won't see him for another 11 months odd. It pinches coz he was here for like 5 weeks and i hardly met him for 5 days. Ok, it isn't entirely my fault. He came one day before my exams started and left one day before they got over. The 12 day mini vacation i got in between was my best hope to catch up with him, but sadly; that didn't happen. He went to Kerala for 2 weeks.. AArrrggghhhhh!!!! Upon returning, he went to spend New Years at Goa. I can't crib much, because i came up with the plan for New Years at Goa. Sadly due to Mumbai university, I couldn't go. It is okie. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I shall have a better vacation, somewhere, i hope.. I miss him... :'(

He did give me a reindeer though!! *big wide grin* It has this permanent "OMG, WTF did u do?" expression!! :D :D :D
Now, everytime i miss him, I go give the reindeer a hug!! :D :D :D



Apart from that, I have started reading again, a lot of reading.. i'm trying to keep myself sane. There is a lot I can't put in here, because it is a public blog. I know you are reading, just drop in a prayer or two for me. To keep me sane. And happy.

I did realise one more thing,

Happiness comes with a price. It is not free. Shine on you crazy diamond. I still care. :)

GRACIAS :)

The sizzling hottie...!!! ISHA MANTRY... :)


The aimless walks, the long conversations, the gentle and comforting hugs, the McD's, the misunderstandings, the tears, the bhel puri obsessions, the park, the shopping trips, Bandra, long typing for overdue projects, bitching, reminiscing school, cursing the traffic, having coffee, birthdays, birthday gifts, health concerns, planning for GOA, crying for not being able to make it there, finding ways to save cash, the Moon, sector 8, Mercs, rock music, aimless chatting, all the drama queen performances, books, music, Orkut, Facebook, more bitching, hope, comfort, NIFT, JD, crossing roads, being there, big smiles, laughter, eunuchs, more laughter, pun, boys, babies, Joel, chocolates, being broke, love, heartache, ol' friends, hugs, kisses, more shopping, gossip, hair cuts, funky clothes, trashy garments, the GaNG from college, puppies, dogs, thievery, pain, care, affection, quick lies, good food, treats, missing each other, BMW, a couple of AUDIs, being free, guitars, music, RAKHI SAWANT, jhalak, siblings, family, phone, <3<3<3 .....

You have always been there for me... I will stick by you.. whether you want me to or not!! :D






The boyfraand...!! MIHIR ROY :) :)

Endless talks, hugs, care,chicken, food, crappy chinese at Stomach, Good chinese at China Gate, bandstand, hugs, encouragement, assignments, Aveer, babies, chocolates, roses, classes, bunking classes, smiles, jokes, 'ya' jokes, Shloka, memorable times, bus rides, holding hands, 300, ice cream, letters, questions, answers, exes, walks, auto rides, vodka,more chicken, Goa, precision planning, Barbecue Nation, Candies, postcards, Marine Drive, PROMISES, laughter, bitching, phone conversations, chor, Luckys, caramel custard, cutiepie, throw in some more chicken, pun, hogging, being broke, lottery gains, arguments, patching up,HOPE, dependence, love, jai jawan, tava, bread talk, good food, Fashion House, understanding, being there, mistakes, apologies, forgiving mistakes, feeling good, mush, rosary, ManU clock, being away, phone, being complete, pain, tommy, cooks, one more rose... <3<3<3....it can't end...

We have been through a lot.. these tides will also pass... <3<3<3....




The super cute firang NRI!! aka JOEL ALENCHERY

chats, weird online timings, Geek, big smiles, gelled hair, pun, 14 and a 3/4th of an inch, "net friend", good food, car rides, McD's, chocolates *rolls eyes*, hours of international calls, all the hugs, typos, cars, gadgets, big bed, housemates, chicken, fraandship, ORKUT, music, IPOD TOUCH, Mochas, chocolate avalanche, laptops, the movie CARS, JD aka JOEL DARLING, mommy, more hugs, deadlines, Engineering, long distances, GOA, miss yous, laughter, foreign accents, beggars, "don't F***ing touch me", chocolate milkshake, money, dreams, Pounds, introvert, promised TREATS, yakking, listening to the yakking, candle light dessert at McD's, football, books, friends, good friends, really good friends, :) smileys, beer and ice cream, Orchids, Google, being there, tears, secrets, walks, crabs, CBD, chor, waste, kise log, kya bakwas, one horribly wrong day at the IIT, hot girls :P, gtalk, yahoo, forwards.... <3<3...
Keep smiling.... you'll get yourself a girlfraand one of these days!! :D And yes, i'll take my treat from you then!!! :D :D :D

Life's Lessons Learnt!!

Things I have learnt over the last one week!!!

• Shit happens as always, deal with it! (It means, scream, sulk and throw a tantrum until your opinion is heard...!! Erm, I won't hold responsibility if you land in jail ;))
• One two aplenty, three calls for more!! (Always return the filthy looks, with a whole lotta interest!!!)
  
• Eat like you have never eaten before!! (Chicken tikka, chicken reshmi kabab, chicken tandoori, pav bhaji, chicken curry, chicken biryani and erm, cheesecake!! That was a two hour stash!! No wonder my waistline is expanding!! :P)
• Spend only the amount of cash that you haven in your pocket! (Else savings start to dwindle!! Current saving: Rs. -34.75!!)
• Take BEST for a spin!! (I have a global pass baby! BEST regrets everyday by giving me that!! Expenditure on BEST in 3 days: 133.5 bucks!! I'm having a blast!! ;))
• Your parent's know the best!! (They love taking you shopping only when you NEED clothes, but what the hell; you are ripping them off anyway!!!)
• Landing up in college on time is a crime! (Landed in college on time for my morning lecture only to find that the next 3 hours are free!!!! *SULK SULK*)
• Smiling gets the job done!! (A flash of the pearly whites and your professor agrees with you on why he NEEDS to cancel the afternoon practicals!! )
• The Indian cricket team has to touch a new low after a new high! (Need I say more???? T20 and then thrashings at home!! :'( )
• Use deodorant! And lots of it!! (Try a crowded woman's compartment on a Virar fast!!!)
• Talk...!! (Talk, bitch, snort, heave, gab, badinage.. You get the point, don't you!! :D)
• Don't let the filthy starer get the better of you! (Show him the finger man, God gave you two of them!!!)
• Last but not the least, compliment people. It always works!! (Reaction to a compliment given by me "Why are you complimenting me???")

Life is good!!! Need I say more???????

^_^

We all matter, in some way or the other.
To someone out there.
Someone.
Someone for whom we make their day.
Someone for whom, we are the day.
Someone, who needed the smile.
And you gave them one.
Someone who wanted to talk.
And you patiently heard them out.
Someone who wanted to hold your hand.
And you gave them yours.
Someone who needed a shoulder to lean on.
And you gave them yours.
Someone who needed a friend.
And you were the best that they could get.
Someone who needed YOU.
And YOU were their f0r them.

Now, when you need someone and no one seems to be there.
Remember, I am a phone call away.
Always there.
For anyone who needs me.
:)

O_o

I think and think until I can think no more.

I am not yet sure that I deserve t0 be with you.
You are good. Way too good. Much more good than I deserve.
I need you. I do.
My day seems incomplete if I haven't spent enough time with you.
Yet, I am scared.
Scared of you.
Scared of the amount you love me. And why you do.
Scared that I will wake up one day from this amazing, amazing dream.
Scared that I will have somehow hurt you.
Scared that you might go away.
Scared for you.

Hold my hand when I seem to want to go away.
Drive away my fears when I seem insecure.
Wipe my tears when I can take no more.
Correct me when you see me do wrong. And again.
Appreciate me when I make you feel good.
Don't leave me and go. Not even when you're angry.
I won't be able to take this pain again.
Never again.

FRIENDS

"Why don't you ask yourself why you don't have any friends?"

Thats what my *FRIEND* so kindly told me today.

So I am asking all of you unknown faces out there.

Tell me why I don't have friends.

Abstract Views: The Confusion Within!

Will it ever be this way,
That you miss me when I am not there?
Or will it be like any other day;
That you won't bother to care?

Will it be that I leave this way
Never to cross paths with you again?
Or will my presence never be missed;
Never there; now that I'm gone?

Is it that you never thought
That I have feelings too?
Or did you just assume that
I was never good enough for you?

My loneliness is stretching away
More painful, each passing day;
Will it ever once bother you
If forever I break and fade away?

Maybe if you just bothered once
Spoke to me for a change,
My little heart will feel very nice
My loneliness will go in vain.

Or maybe I wouldn't be important enough
For your care and your love
I will simply fade away,
Only remembered by time...