14 Dec 2008

You

It is one hell of a day when you realise that, all that you have been doing is wrong. That it hasn't been fair. That justice wasn't meted out. That it broke someone along the way. That the tears were unstoppable.

You did wrong. You weren't fair. You didn't do justice. You broke someone along the way. You made someone cry.

Then you realise in all glory; that the person you are staring at is your own reflection. You are looking at a mirror. A mirror that is as cracked and faded, as you feel. As tormented as the shadows of the dark. As ghastly as you feel ashamed of your unfairness. As lonely and tormented as your soul. As insane as the world that it reflects.

And yet, you know that it is you. And there is still so much more there. A promise of a better tomorrow. A sliver of a new dawn. A faint silver lining.

You promise yourself to make it better. You promise to stand up for yourself. You want to prove something to yourself. You don't let anyone else rule you. They don't hold a say in your life. They don't have that much importance. They don't matter at all.

The gory death of you. That was what had; almost, happened. And somehow you lived to see another day. The carnage was terrible, the stench of blood overpowering. The darkness ripped your soul.

And yet you live.

No, they didn't miss you. No, they didn't fall. No, they don't realise that you are still very much there.

Still alive.

Living for yourself. For a change. A good change.

PS: My sun still shines. :)

29 comments:

Express said...

Yes.
Realization evokes change. But do we always stick to our promises we make 2 ourself?
we continue being vulnerable, we continue living.

and then the next day,
lifes all good
:-D

Cяystal said...

One day you have the darkness tearing your soul apart..but the very next day you have to quit it all,and move on!

So is life..pich.
Btw--exams over?

Shravan Vijayaprasad said...

arey, reaaly really long!?? when's your exams gettin over??

and yea, a wonderful realization! but I don't think it's possible to live for yourself all the time!

Anyway, if it's a good change for you, then it's a welcome change!!:):)

Cheers,

Come back to regular blogging soon!

I'll be waiting!

Yamini Meduri said...

hi frnd...

i liked your post and yes, your blog tooo...couldnot stop from leaving a comment hope you cdont mind

and Living yourself. for a change. A good change.

i liked these words....!!

Mihir Pathare said...



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Ankur Kakkar said...

SHE IS BACK AND HOW !!! great post yar... now its like your post is always incomplete without the typical philosophical poetry and deep meaning beneath the words !!


great going gal !!

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Hemanth Potluri said...

gr8 post after soo many days...wer u been...how wer ur exams done...hope to see ya soon friend :)..

urs..hemu..

Anurag said...

Ahh... Self Realization...Your P.S and ends it on a good note and let it shine for the better :)

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Hyperactive maniac said...

ah! i know the feeling!
it sucks!

Nidz said...

hey Anindita.. i never get to see ur blog post as in the dwnloads damn slow. I some hw manage to read ur post by selecting or else everything is dark black to me..
i hope u doing good.
talking to ourselves at time is solution to our own prob. :P

Joel said...

welcome to the wonderfull thing that some one high up there has put us in for his everyday entertainment ... they call it life .. hehe .. :D

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Keshi said...

Darkness is as enlightening as Light is.

beautifully written!

Keshi.

Trinaa said...

my sun started shining recently :D

nicely expressed hon...come back soon :))

Vishesh said...

i love to look at myself in the mirror and then just laugh :P

Aditya Ajgaonkar said...

After midnight... morning will come. It's just a moment , this time will pass.

rainboy said...

living for yourself...wish i could do it...

nice post...

Trinaa said...

u have been awarded :))

Nefariousoutlook said...

its been long since i read your posts...but i must say..awesome post...very well written and a very very interesting thought !!

Sruthisagar Yamunan said...

did you ask this when you were in from of the mirror?

"Mirror Mirror on the wall who is the pretty of em all"

:D

Sruthisagar Yamunan said...

front*

humbl devil said...

hey girl...
wonderfully written...

yeah, there's always a sunrise after the night has passed away...perseverance(to make it through no matter what the difficulties) pays off..

:)

p.s.
you are being awarded..check back laterz at my abode...should be u[p in a day or two...
:)

Heart'n'Soul said...

Ani - very very very well written...

time for some introspection is it?

Loved every word of this post, one of my fav compositions, not just from you but from blogville in genral... :)

seriously_frivolous said...

this is why I never look into mirrors. So what if my hair is unkempt..at least my conscience is intact ;)

liked this one...good job!

Lucifer said...

hey u been awarded on my blog :)

Mihir Pathare said...

Helo there ^_^

nice one said...

my sun set a long time ago..

nice to see so much energy in you..