Life's Lessons Learnt!!

Things I have learnt over the last one week!!!

• Shit happens as always, deal with it! (It means, scream, sulk and throw a tantrum until your opinion is heard...!! Erm, I won't hold responsibility if you land in jail ;))
• One two aplenty, three calls for more!! (Always return the filthy looks, with a whole lotta interest!!!)
  
• Eat like you have never eaten before!! (Chicken tikka, chicken reshmi kabab, chicken tandoori, pav bhaji, chicken curry, chicken biryani and erm, cheesecake!! That was a two hour stash!! No wonder my waistline is expanding!! :P)
• Spend only the amount of cash that you haven in your pocket! (Else savings start to dwindle!! Current saving: Rs. -34.75!!)
• Take BEST for a spin!! (I have a global pass baby! BEST regrets everyday by giving me that!! Expenditure on BEST in 3 days: 133.5 bucks!! I'm having a blast!! ;))
• Your parent's know the best!! (They love taking you shopping only when you NEED clothes, but what the hell; you are ripping them off anyway!!!)
• Landing up in college on time is a crime! (Landed in college on time for my morning lecture only to find that the next 3 hours are free!!!! *SULK SULK*)
• Smiling gets the job done!! (A flash of the pearly whites and your professor agrees with you on why he NEEDS to cancel the afternoon practicals!! )
• The Indian cricket team has to touch a new low after a new high! (Need I say more???? T20 and then thrashings at home!! :'( )
• Use deodorant! And lots of it!! (Try a crowded woman's compartment on a Virar fast!!!)
• Talk...!! (Talk, bitch, snort, heave, gab, badinage.. You get the point, don't you!! :D)
• Don't let the filthy starer get the better of you! (Show him the finger man, God gave you two of them!!!)
• Last but not the least, compliment people. It always works!! (Reaction to a compliment given by me "Why are you complimenting me???")

Life is good!!! Need I say more???????

^_^

We all matter, in some way or the other.
To someone out there.
Someone.
Someone for whom we make their day.
Someone for whom, we are the day.
Someone, who needed the smile.
And you gave them one.
Someone who wanted to talk.
And you patiently heard them out.
Someone who wanted to hold your hand.
And you gave them yours.
Someone who needed a shoulder to lean on.
And you gave them yours.
Someone who needed a friend.
And you were the best that they could get.
Someone who needed YOU.
And YOU were their f0r them.

Now, when you need someone and no one seems to be there.
Remember, I am a phone call away.
Always there.
For anyone who needs me.
:)

O_o

I think and think until I can think no more.

I am not yet sure that I deserve t0 be with you.
You are good. Way too good. Much more good than I deserve.
I need you. I do.
My day seems incomplete if I haven't spent enough time with you.
Yet, I am scared.
Scared of you.
Scared of the amount you love me. And why you do.
Scared that I will wake up one day from this amazing, amazing dream.
Scared that I will have somehow hurt you.
Scared that you might go away.
Scared for you.

Hold my hand when I seem to want to go away.
Drive away my fears when I seem insecure.
Wipe my tears when I can take no more.
Correct me when you see me do wrong. And again.
Appreciate me when I make you feel good.
Don't leave me and go. Not even when you're angry.
I won't be able to take this pain again.
Never again.

FRIENDS

"Why don't you ask yourself why you don't have any friends?"

Thats what my *FRIEND* so kindly told me today.

So I am asking all of you unknown faces out there.

Tell me why I don't have friends.

Abstract Views: The Confusion Within!

Will it ever be this way,
That you miss me when I am not there?
Or will it be like any other day;
That you won't bother to care?

Will it be that I leave this way
Never to cross paths with you again?
Or will my presence never be missed;
Never there; now that I'm gone?

Is it that you never thought
That I have feelings too?
Or did you just assume that
I was never good enough for you?

My loneliness is stretching away
More painful, each passing day;
Will it ever once bother you
If forever I break and fade away?

Maybe if you just bothered once
Spoke to me for a change,
My little heart will feel very nice
My loneliness will go in vain.

Or maybe I wouldn't be important enough
For your care and your love
I will simply fade away,
Only remembered by time...

Gender Equality!!

The conversation kind of went like this!!!

Mihir: so...

whaterding?

me: typing! :P

Mihir: typing what? >_<

me: words n sentences

n00b

:P

Mihir: related to?

:S

.omg

dont you dare call me that

me: :P

thats my roshambull thingy says now

i am a n00b

:'(

Mihir: bleh

i agree

me: :P

Mihir: ^_^

me: bull

Mihir: whats the gender oppsite of cowdung? :P

me: bullding?? :P

Mihir: lmao

from what angle??? :P

me: :)

cow attracts bull and it seemed convinient to replace u with i!! :D

Mihir: >_<

me: that was sad

nm

:D

Mihir: gender opposite of cowdung is bullshit!

n00b <_<

I want!!

• A cloud with a silver lining.
• A smile upon every deserving face.
  
• A little box selling happiness.
• A shining ray of hope.
• An unforgettable evening of laughter.
• A friend who will always stand by with me.
• A device that keeps churning out small arrows of forgiveness.
• A shadow that can talk!
• My very own pet superhero.

Please donate generously!! :P

Wrote this for someone who was very low and needed some cheering up.. :)

As we live without a glimmer of hope
No things to make us feel good
Rem'r me by as the one
Rem'r me as the one who stood

Stood with you as you felt low
Felt like the world had melted away
Felt like a single smile would never do
Felt as sad as the crying jay

I will take ur hand again
And give u a reassuring smile
Entangle ur fingers with a ray of hope
Speak a silent prayer to make things fine

Will give u a hug that u so dearly need
And a small flower to chase away ur gloom
A gentle kiss upon ur forehead
And feel ur happiness bloom.


BTW.. I am rocking to American baby by Dave Matthews Band.

Head banging to: Blurry by Puddle of Mudd!!!

It is 6 am. I feel rejuvenated, I feel fresh and I feel good!!! No people, I haven't gotten my night's sleep and neither am I high, drunk, doped, et al and blah that I can't think of anyways!!!

I had an amazingly good day yesterday.. Went to Phoenix Mills with Isha. She had to collect her phone back from the Nokia center. That meant an entire day of fun and if I may so brashly be blunt, free food!!

*Little temptations that I can't resist!!!*

After reaching there, the first thing that the two of us did was pig out!! McD's!! Free food.. Almost got more than we paid for.. If only Isha had arrived a moment too late.. *Sigh* The atrocities in life!! After that we went to Lifestyle, the typical chindi shoppers looking and trying but not buying!!!! We went and saw these amazingly beautiful African center pieces.. Gosh.. They were truly beautiful.. And after that direct attack on Pantaloons!!!

*Muhuhuhahahahahahaha*

Armed with about 5 garments each, we both headed towards the trial rooms.. Tops, blouses, wraparounds, A line skirts, really really itty bitty skirts, and something shiny.. They must have abused us...!!! Ooohh.. Before we left from the store, my ebil; very ebil mind decided to do atleast a single act of ebil..!!

They have this computerised feedback form which can be filled there.. Didn't guess it yet??? ;)
Well; I put on my most innocent face and with the devil's mind; filled up the most ugly reviews ever and filled in my.. ahem AHEM.. BEST FRIEND'S name and her contact number... (Umm.. the BEST Friend is pun intended, as always!!)

Yaz, yaz.. I'm ebil..!!!

After that the two of us were joined by Mihir Pathare.. (Yaz yaz, the guy with blue hair, grow up already!!) After making everyone in Barista conscious with our roaring laughs, outrageous and childish antics and not to mention the occasional 'whee'ing of Mihir's styrofoam gun pellets and the "emittance" of Blueberry Brain Freezer, a very badly taken pun about my Puss in Boots ahem.. Pussy!!! ;) (There was no pun intended.. Isha and Mihir are plain EBIL!!)

We went to the courtyard where Mihir amused some of the gawking kids with a very very noisy "helicopter" which went into the air with a LOUD W-H-E-E-E-E-E-E-E!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Or was it more like P-E-E-E-E-E-E-E-E???

Hmmm....

Who cares??? ;) We had F-U-N!!!

We left from there near about 5:45 pm and were back to homeland about 7:13!! And what do the two lazyasses with too much free time on our hands do?? Head straight for the mall!!! No, actually our friends had gathered there and we spent another 2 hours roaring with laughter.. As we parted, with Isha and I running miserably late; I rem'r to buy about a hundred different things that I have been instructed to!! Yaz the rick fellow did abuse me..!! ;) He didn't crib when he got about 5 bucks more than his usual fare though!! Waste!!

After that, 2 minutes away from home.. I meet Aditya Mundra.. The resident class joker from school.. I spent over an hour talking to him..*Erm, beg your pardon; it was I who did most of the talking!!* The two of us left after we both got calls reminding us that bed could very well be on the Verandah for the next 2 months!! ;)

Came home, ma grumpy, but didn't say anything.. :) Which means that things are fine!!

YAyyy!!

And then, the marathon phone call..

Hold your breath people!!!!

00.00 hrs to 5:53 hrs!!

oooOOOoo0OOOoo000oo!!!!!

It helped. It helped a lot! I have a personal life that is alive and running once again!! And I am proud to say; it changed things between us!! Forever.. For the better!!

I LIKE!!!!

YAyyyyy!!!!

Anyways, I'm off to sleep now.. Just realised I might have a lunch invite.. Which means another 5 hrs to hogdom.. hehehehe...

Slong..

Ermm.. Cheee!!!!!!

Weird. Weirder. Weirdest....


The conversation kind of went like this.


"I got mixed reactions after I shaved off my mustache"

"Erm.. ok."

"I was thinking of growing a French beard. Or spiking my hair. Or maybe both."

"Uhh.. Why don't you just do a Britney and check into rehab??? Ya, don't forget, you have to go void of underwear and flash."

Long pause.

"Ermm.. don't worry.. I won't look. I'm sure it won't be a pretty site. Ugly even. Ewww.. "

Pat comes the reply.

"Ya, it is ugly."

Silence.

"Oh noo.. I didn't mean that.. Err.. Why are we talking about this again????"

No comments.

*SMIRKS*

LIFE IS GOOD.

=D

SHAME ONTO THYSELF!

"So you are all of nineteen", said a grumpy looking aunt, peering at me through her glasses and getting an unfazed look in return.

"Ermm.. yeah, I am", came the reply. "But how does it matter if I am nineteen or twenty six?"

Wrong answer to an aunt.. Wait she ain't my direct aunt even, just some cranky distant relative who didn't get hold of anyone else to bug..

"Why me?" I ask myself.

"Dear Lord, why me???"

Umm I used five profanities in these two sentences but for the sake of caution don't type it out here. Who knows, grumpy aunty might be spying on my blog!!!

>_<

That was followed by the longest lecture on why I should care about my age, my looks (No, I ain't putting red lipstick even if u smothered me in the effort to do so!!!), my weight (Ya, so I am overweight by a few kilos but you could give a rhino a run for his money), my friends (That woman actually gave me advice on how to choose my friends!!) OMG!!! I kind of didn't hear the rest of her vacuum cleaner drone as she went on and on!!

"What have I done to suffer this injustice?? What have I done to endure her??" I grumpily question myself. And if it didn't get any better, she asks me,

"So, when are you getting married??"

HUH...???!!!!!

EXCUSE ME..!!!!

WHAT????

COME AGAIN???!!!!!

She mistook my irritation as a sign of shyness or something and went on to describe the kind of groom she would like to see me with. You know the plump, fat, obnoxious, lazy man who only eats and sleeps all day enslaving his wife at home to do the household chores and worship him on an alternate basis!!??!!

wtf..!!! Wtf!!! WTF!!!!!

My temper was beginning to boil.

Firstly, woman; I don't know you.
Secondly, my parents and I will have a say in this, not you.
Thirdly, you have no right to tell me what kind of a guy I should get for myself, especially when you can't get your 25 year ol' daughter married.
Fourth, for someone who is separated from her husband, go do something with your life.
Fifth, ummm.. never mind.. only profanity comes to my mind..!!


After that she went to describe with utter glee what she would like me to wear, how she would like me to hero worship my husband; rather idol worship him, never get a job, gossip about the neighbours.. blah blah blah.. STOP EVEN..!!!!!!


You know, aunt, with all due respect, please get out of my face before I punch you. Please go now. Please go before I do or say something that I shouldn't!

JUST GO!!!!

But nothing like that happened.

Sigh.

I lost my temper.

In a crystal clear but soft voice so as to not embarrass her further I told her maybe it is time for her to think about her own daughter and leave me alone.

I didn't want to further stretch the conversation but guess it wasn't my day.

WHY????

"What did you just tell me?", she yelled.

The room went silent.

Just great.

I replied, "I told you to think about your daughter instead of me and to leave me alone."

That was followed by the longest silence there could have been. I wasn't loud enough for the other people to catch what I said, but the people were just moving in closer towards us.

Aunt's face turned purple. She looked like she was about to have an asthma attack but at the very same instant I realised she was angry. LIVID.

Don't ask me why she lost her temper so fast. But she did.

T-R-O-U-B-L-E.

She raised her hand to bring it down on my face. Yes, she did. In front of 200 odd people, she raised her hand to strike me. All I could think of was how unfortunate her daughter was. As her hand came down to strike me on my face, I ducked. She lost her balance and she fell.

Collective gasps went on in the crowd. A couple of snickers were heard here and there. Even though I was almost slapped by her, I bent down to help her get up on her feet.

Wrong thing to do.

Note to self: Never help agitated aunts who don't happen to be your blood relatives..!!!!

She yelled like a warrior in distress.

"Don't you dare touch me."

I was so tempted to walk away but that would only humiliate me further.

I waited.

Some other people helped her onto her feet.

As she brushed herself off, she abused me.

I was stunned.

She used profanities on me.!!!

OUCH.

Ok. Whatever. Not that it mattered much.

She then abused my mother. She lashed out at my ma's character. That snapped me. You say whatever you want to me. I will tolerate it. But dragging my ma into something is not something you have the right to do; you ungainly woman.

My hand went up. But then, I lowered it. In a crystal clear but loud vice this time; I told her,

"You are not worthy of the slap I would have hit you with right now. Abusing my ma didn't get you anywhere but slapping you would not be something that my ma would want her daughter to do to an ungainly and characterless woman like you."

This said and done.. I walked away, head held up with pride. Her head lowered she left the place.

And within 12 hours she had caught a train back to her place. The shame didn't let her stay for the rest of the events scheduled throughout the week.

I had won.

Justice was done.



Note: Hehe.. I don't have a grumpy aunt like that, actually I do but i steer away from her.. I was bored studying DSA, this is a product of my overactive imagination!! :P :P :P

I found this funky site on the net which has all the tunes you could ever imagine.. Television tunes mind you.. Pretty good stuff.. Even though the sound quality may not be so good, the collection beats that.. Go check the site for yourself!! :) :) :)

http://www.televisiontunes.com/

Btw.. moi is rocking to The reason by Hoobastank :)

Retarded bullfrogs??!! :D

Listening to: Holiday by Greenday
I feel: A Li'l tired but mostly cheerful ;)


I had three submissions in the course of 4 days. I am more than a little bugged of seeing assignment sheets and am definitely not in a mood to write them assignments and journals for a long long time!! :D Did I forget to mention that I had a viva and three tests as well???!!! :D Ohh and before I forget, I have a seminar tomorrow!! :D Tired to the core.. I am more than willing to jet off to some exotic locale and enjoy myself in some exotic spa or something sipping drinks as I lie by the pool.. Sounds totally "filmi" donnit?? Well, thats what it is and thats what it shall remain!! :D Still have to go study for the seminar.. But first have to inquire about the name of the topic!! :D Am like; totally clueless.. Not much worry, I will have someone like Windy who shall know everything about how, what, why, where, when et al et al!!

It is more like Wind except you pronounce it more like V~ind.. Or whatever.. Getting back to the shit I was talking abut either ways.. :P

For all of you people who don't know Windy, he happens to be one of those classmates who well, kinda know everything about everything!! :D :D And his name is Arvind!! :D Don't tell me you actually believed Windy..!!!

ROFL!!

All of you retarded bulldogs!! Bless you guys.. Post again, if I make it through tomorrow!! :D

Listening to: Breaking the habit by L.P. and Love bites by Def Leppard.

And some more..

I spoke to Mihir Pathare yesterday(Not to be confused with Mihir Roy!).. One of my nicest friends.. Well, it has been ages that I have had one of the long uninterrupted conversations with him and was finally happy to have spoken to him after ages.. I was snoozing away at about 3 in the morning and thought to myself, what the heck, might as well snooze for another 10 mins.. Cute, eh?? ;) The next time I was about to hit the snooze button when I found me a message..!! 3 in the morning.. Sounds like Pathare..!!

He had been wanting to talk to me since about 10 in the night but my Ma was on the prowl and she was in an unexceptionally grumpy mood so I didn't call him up. But at 3, I was like, Ma is asleep, I am drowsy but what the heck, he still happens to be my friend!! Lets call!!

It was nice talking to him after ages. We spoke about so many things. The conversation included Kiro, a fire truck siren at 3:30 in the morning, Ishan, my door lock, Maya, college, assignments and life in general.. I haven't laughed so much at 3 in the morning. It felt really nice.. Reminds me that I really need to go see Kiro. A dog is always such a weak point for me. You might as well bribe me with a dog and viola, your work is done.. Almost!! Don't get your horns tuned to what I just typed!! :P

All in all, I have to thank Orkut for having Mihir as my friend and the Discrete paper which started it all.. Thank you. And Mihir, I must say, you are one of my nicest buddies about!! :)

For you baby..

My song is love
My song is love, unknown
But I'm on fire for you, clearly
You don't have to be alone
You don't have to be on your own

And I'm not gonna take it back
And I'm not gonna say I don't mean that
You're the target that I'm aiming at
And I'm nothing on my own
Got to get that message home

And I'm not gonna stand and wait
Not gonna leave it until it's much too late
On a platform I'm gonna stand and sing
That I'm nothing on my own
And I love you, please come home

Listening to Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol.

Silent conversations...

As I stood there watching the tide come in, I felt the breeze ruffle my neatly combed hair into a perfect mess.. The soft rays of the the setting sun played with my face inviting me to go touch it.. The soft crashing of the waves left me awestruck and tempted as always.. I was so tempted to touch the water inspite of my better judgement.. *Sigh* I am a total water bug..

The sun just sank lower and lower leaving the horizon a brilliant combination of all hues possible.. The pinks, the blues, the oranges, the peaches, the crimsons, the golds.. *Sigh* The horizon.. I have always been so fascinated by the horizon.. I always wanted to take that step ahead and go touch the horizon.. But as my teacher explained to us in fourth grade, you cannot touch the horizon, for every step that you take ahead, the horizon takes a step back.. True, so true.. The pinks and the golds were fast disappearing giving way to the darker colours.. It seemed more like it was a game.. and now it was the turn of the darker hues to take over..

The beauty that the darkness offers is not something that many people can or will appreciate.. It is a shame that people can be so ignorant at the beauty staring them in the face.. As the darkness settled in, I felt a little puppy wandering about.. Obviously separated from its mother it seemed ignorant of the fact that it was alone.. It came near me, sniffing me because I most probably gave him something new to discover.. The little thing was hardly a month old.. It was so adorable.. Seven sniffs and a pat on its soft head and off it went, tottering off to another mission..

The darkness had taken over, the breeze was still soft on my face, comforting even.. A caress.. A gentle touch if you would.. I could see shimmering lights in the far distance.. As the darkness grew more, the lights shimmered more sharply, more beautiful and more awe striking.. They invited me to go join them.. They wanted me to dance to their brilliant shimmer.. And to give competition to these lights were the stars.. It was a clear cloudless night.. The moon away on a vacation as we were told when we were kids.. It was a very clear moonless, bright and enchanting night.. Each star shone distinctly.. Each star whispered out a message.. Each one told me to try and touch them.. The only thing that disturbed the beauty of the stars was a lone aeroplane going off to some far away land.. Ever since I was a kid, I always wished upon aeroplanes.. I made another wish.. As always...

This is when I realised that I had had the most beautiful conversation in ages.. I spoke to all the elements that make life more beautiful and worth living.. It was one of my best conversations.. Ever!!

The little things in life..!!

Listening to: Fergilicious by Fergie (Listen to those lyrics..!!! What was she thinking..?? I'm easy, I'm sleazy!! Hehe!!)

Finally..

The depressed spell has taken an about turn...

It has traveled the length of the seven seas and is hopefully not going to come back for a long, long time...

I have discovered that somehow when you hang around with people who drink, you kind of know about the names of all the bars about the place..

Funny..

Yeah!!

Also, I have found out when the person you dislike doesn't get tea you get sadistic pleasure in giving an evil smile and thinking to yourself that she doesn't deserve to have tea in the morning!!!

Also realised, you can bitch about that person for hours and hours and it still is not enough!!!

I have found out, that when a guy likes you and then ultimately settles down to being good friends, you can ask him for chocolate all the time!! He won't say no!! (Not that I do, I just happen to know!!!)

I have found out that the guy you go out with is normally the one who will make a hundred million faces when it comes to paying but will not let you pay!! (I guess that makes it more fun!)

I have discovered that in my college Maggi noodles is a life saver! (Magic noodles sound funky too!! A cheap imitation of Maggi noodles found somewhere!!!!)

I have so heard that the Lehar chips duplicate happens to be Poulami chips!! (Interesting!!)

BTW, Cigarette prices going up have become a major concern for all the smokers in my college..!! (Finally hail Chidambaram...!!)

Ummm, I have lots of crows in my college willing to give you ashirwad any time of the day!!!

If you can turn on the charm, you get free sachets from the stalls..!!! (Girl power, yeah!! GO ME!!)

Bandstand should be avoided if you dislike PDA's and men with no toilet sense!!!! (Ewwwww!!!)

Bandra is a good place to hunt up for Lexus's, BMW's, Audi's et al et al!!

Last but not the least...

My group has split since college began, I don't have hard feelings for the people who have hurt me and taken me for granted.. At the end of the day, we are still friends.. :)

Listening to: Dust in the wind by LP.

The wilder side of life…!!!

Hmmm.. life is beautiful.. More beautiful than any song can describe it.. But what happens when you want to explore the darker, the deeper and the wilder side of life?? All hell breaks loose... Trust me upon that...

Well, keeping the names anonymous because I got requests for them.. I shall name my friends as A, M, S, H. (Sounds crappy, but then I don’t want broken bones and I have discovered M can hit and that M can hurt!!!!) Well, A has been having an empty house for the last couple of days. Her parents have gone out of town for like 10 days.. Coolness.. So she decided to do the one thing that she wanted to do for ages...

*BOOZE UNTO THE ACT CAUSED HER TO GET HIGH!!!!*

Well, so this chick had got some booze stocked from before. (No she ain’t your regular bevdi, she meant to gift it to someone else for her birthday!) Well, so we had two 60ml bottles of flavoured Vodka and we were contemplating what else to get. So the other day when we were out with Mr. J she politely inquired and promptly stocked up on two quarter bottles of rum and more Vodka!!!

So on Saturday, all prepared to party unto the end of the world, and trust me.. we did..!!! I was the first to reach A’s place and we were soon joined by M and S!! After a while, A and S went to buy chips and soft drink. (Read: booze for me!!) In the mean time,I ordered pizza, the biggest that Dominoes could offer. (I don’t really like Dominoes, but then again;I didn’t have a choice!!) My pizza which the counter woman told me would take 45 mins to arrive; arrived before the chips and colas!! :D :D (They most prolly manufactured it, but then; I couldn’t care less!!)

Ten minutes of hunting for the appropriate glasses, plates, bowls etc the booze party had officially started. But before I go into details of that I shall tell you guys why I don’t drink.

1. I have this friend of mine who means a lot to me who has specifically mentioned that I am not to booze else, he will be the first one to whack back my senses into me.I ain’t scared of him, but what he said made a lot of sense so I stayed off the booze!!

2 . I had a major, major battle with my conscience and my conscience won. I don’t lie at my place. And the fact that a sleepover and booze party have no similarities made me stay off the booze. Most probably the day I booze I will tell my folks that I am off to booze but then again, I can’t ascertain that now!!

Never mind. Getting back to the story..

A and M went straight for the rum.. A little mixing with the coke and it all disappeared down

in one gulp!!(No comments) I was on the phone so I have no clue who had what, but I know that the alcohol disappeared pretty fast..M was complaining that she wasn’t getting high..So she drank rum neat!!! And A had the brains to remove the biggest glasses in the house. Wrong idea. Especially when M was drinking half glasses of neat....!!! Still complaining that she wasn’t getting high, suddenly she leaps about yelling, “I am so happy!!” WTF WTF WTF!!! In the meanwhile A and H were doing this seductive dance to the tune of Buttons by PCD. A was high and while using the chair as a prop, instead of gently sliding down the chair, she managed to fall of the chair, not once, not twice but all of three times!! (And now she complains that her neck hurts!! *Rolls eyes*)

As she fell off the chair for the fourth time, she started laughing hysterically.. She just rolled herself into a ball and she laughed, and laughed, and laughed.. She was happy, or dunno why, she just laughed!! In the meantime, an exceptionally high M came upto her and asked her to stop laughing.. But A was too high to stop laughing and she rolled about on the floor laughing.. This pissed off M and she hit and scratched A.. We had to drag her away from A for the fear that she would manage to hurt her, bad..

After that A more or less kept to herself.. Once the laughter has passed off for a stupid smile on her face, she went to the bed and lied down. Good girl A..!! I so wish that M did the same thing as well!! But M had other plans. The booze went onto her pretty fast.. She got hysterical and I had a blast.. Never heard so many contradictory sentences in one hour!! :D

I heard stuff like, “I am not high” (Yeah, I believe you); “You think I am drunk but I am not” (*rolls eyes*); “I can see two of everything but it is because I am not wearing my glasses” (:D :D :D no comments!!). Also, I have heard stuff like, “I can’t control myself, but don’t worry; Anindita is controlling me” (Umm... okie, if you insist); “Can I kiss you?”(Excuse me??!!??!!); “I want to make out with you, will you come with me to the bedroom”(Hell, NO woman; I won’t!!!!!!). M has also publicly declared her hatred for S!! She has told S to “Get lost”, “I hate you” and at some point of time she got real bugged with S and was heard telling her boyfriend, “I really like A but she’s sleeping with S whom I don’t like. I hate her.” (For all you perverts, they were not sleeping together as your perverted mind let you to believe!!!)

Well, more about M later, (I know you’re dying to hear more but wait, patience pays!!!) we move onto A!! Well, A here basically sought S’s company for most of the evening. I found

A (quite high) sleeping peacefully with her arms around S’s waist!! I do believe she smiled and laughed more, but then; M kind of kept me real preoccupied!! In the meantime, S was still drinking, not much; but she was kind of upset that she wasn’t doing something hysterical!! (Upset?? That was the best part about the entire evening!!) I had enough on my hands with a larger than life M!! And H was not high. She didn’t get high at all.. One hell of a capacity that girl has got.. She finished most of the rum and the vodka.. to such an extent that she drank almost half glasses of neat!!! (Oh Maan, WTF!!!) And she was still not high!! :D

In the meantime M kept me on my toes.. She was so high that she couldn’t stand. She kept falling here and she kept falling there!! Ummm, her explanation was so funny... She bent to her left and said that if she fell that way, she still had some control. Then she bent on the right and said that if she fell to the right she had some control. Then she bent forward in an attempt to tell me that she had no control when she fell forwards, but she never quite managed that ‘cause she actually fell. I really felt bad for her boyfriend, the poor fellow didn’t realize that she was high and had to bear the brunt of her actions!!! Btw, M also managed to kiss herself in than mirror more than once while trying to see herself in the mirror. :D :D She would fall flat into the mirror!!! Erm, she kissed my hand about thrice and S’s hands as well!! But I think that is still acceptable in society, so who cares!! :D

M also hurt herself while she fell . She hurt her foot. She was heard telling, “My foot na, I don’t know why, but it hurts, I mean it is dirty but it also hurts!!!” Hehe.. No connection, none at all!! Also, she went into these fits of umm.. happiness, regret, apathy, worry, jealousy.. Umm I don’t know. Never mind. Getting back to the point, she went into these fits where she would start yelling on the top of her voice. I finally had to tell her that yelling would cause the police to come by!! That would keep her voice down for quite sometime.. And then again, the warning had to be repeated!!!! She also has told me that she is fat and is unhappy with her body!!! And ya, at one point of time, she also wanted to strip!!! Ummm.. don’t worry.. we didn’t let her.. For all you guys.. sorry... no descriptions!! :P

In her case of “A rush of blood to the head ” (make that a lot of blood) she almost broke a set of speakers, managed to almost break A’s glass table. She pushed at the thing so hard that the glass top came off. Luckily for her, S and me were there and no damage was done to that..!!! PHEW!!! But her cell phone was not so lucky, after managing to bang it into almost every surface on the house; her phone had an additional number of scratches and patches of colour loss...!!! The flush didn’t survive. AT some point of time, she had to use the loo and while she was falling, she grabbed onto the flush and erm, broke it.. It came off straight from the wall!!!! OUCH!! Mega ouch!!!!

The worse was this female wouldn’t sit, let alone lie down somewhere.. At some point of time, I lost my patience with her..After that H and S took over, but S had to soon go away, because M didn’t really like S after she got high!!! She was heard screaming, “I hate my f@&*ing college” after which H managed to calm her down and then she felt real uneasy.. That meant a hurried trip to the loo, a little bit of role reversal with the stomach, a pile of vomit and a much better feeling M. After puking, she felt better, she got into a very chatty mood and H had the patience to hear her out!! J Relief for me!!!

In the meantime, S who was still sipping into her glass got a li’l high. She started talking about this guy from college who she liked and confessed her love for him. She also mentioned the fact that he was going out with someone else. She was almost ready to cry, but I kinda told her to lie down on the sofa so that she would feel better and she dozed off there. That left just me and H awake. All the other three were dozing off in various places!!! H wanted to bug people in Orkut and in the midst of it, A walked in with a major major headache!! (Read: Hangover!!) While H was still doing TP sending nonsensical scraps to half the public, I rem’r dozing off on the French window, getting bitten by mosquitoes and getting up and dozing off on A’s parents bed!!

Waking up in the morning was the best thing, ‘cause that we could blackmail M!! For all that I took, it was fine!! We had a major fun session in the morning, while M cleaned the loo, we kept telling her in bits and pieces what she did, as expected she didn’t rem’r half of it and denied the other half!! WE had a simple breakfast of omelets and Fanta, followed up with chocolates and one by one we all called it a night..!! (Day rather!!)

The only thing that I can’t confirm was the rumors that two of them made out!! I know, I know!! Gross!!! But that is something I can’t confirm and something that I am not gonna confirm... I know I have put in a hurried end. Incase I remember more things, I will put in a Ps post!! Take Care people,and no; we are not letting M drink for a really really long time!!!! :D :D :D

Cheers!!

Listening to: The Scientist by Coldplay.

The unenthusiastic me..!!

I feel apathetic. Everything seems to be a haze and everything seems unreal. My mind is fuzzy and unclear. A blissful blank if you must. I guess a lack of interesting classmates and an equal lack of me being able to entertain myself has resulted in a totally disoriented me.

Maybe I should just take a break for a while. A real long one maybe, but a good one. Unfortunately, I can't. Stupid college. Nothing seems worth it and everything seems to be something that I fail to appreciate. I don't know why, but somehow I just seem to be in a sad and unappreciative mood. Shame on me. I am a so called "optimist". Bull I say. My optimism died last September with a chaos of events. I normally don't retaliate. Maybe the lack of retaliation and the constant remembrance of the sad events have made me as vulnerable as I am now. Tears flow easy. My smile has become plastic and fake. My patience has increased to infinitesimal amounts. Not good signs, not good at all.

Today my friend asked me what was wrong with me. I so wanted to tell him everything. But I didn't. The fear of rejection and the ego set in. I didn't want him to tell me that I was wrong in keeping things to myself. I didn't want to hear that I was wrong. In order to mould myself to the college life, I most probably have given people the impression that I am easy to walk on, because I have stopped retaliating. Maybe I should retaliate again. And again. And again. I should retaliate until they stop. I don't want to hear that I am wrong. I have heard that so many times. My ego needs to gain something out of somewhere. It just does. It is kind of non existent now. It needs a while to heal.

I don't know how to get my optimism back. Do you know? If you do, let me know. I am open to new ideas. Atleast I think I am. I'll give it a try atleast. That much I can promise. I hope to smile wider and more realistically the next time you meet me. Take care guys. Love you all.

Listening to: A bunch of songs from a playlist having over 160 of them!! Right now: Square One by C0ldplay.

The most beautiful evening ever.....

Ahh, the most beautiful one of them all.. Started out last Monday.. well, it ended out last Monday as well.. but then, we could just have sat there forever....

I have COA classes on Monday. Lucky me, so does Mihir, one of my closest buddies ever. And when you have someone readily willing to bunk off class with you, need I say more?? ;)

I wasn't well in between. A bout of food poisoning left me miserable, weak and prone to nausea for no reason whatsoever..!!!! After college on Monday, we both left for Bandra where our classes are held. Feeling a little out of place and nauseous, the bus ride did nothing to my already spinning head. After reaching Bandra, we two hungry pigs made our way to Lucky's for the most awesome butter chicken and Roomali Rotis... (Trust me guys, if you haven't tried this out there; U DON"T DESERVE TO LIVE!!!!!!) Unfortunately for me, my nausea just got worse after the food. :'( And I didn't feel like attending three hours of multiplication and division. (Yaz, we still have all that in Engineering!!)

So the ever ready Mihir and me decided to bunk off the class.. Only problem was, what to do with the three hours that we had to kill?? (He couldn't be home.) And then, the bright idea hit home. Lets go do tp at Bandra Reclamation. I hadn't been to Reclamation before and the place sure looked inviting from the window of the 505!! Now the next dilemma, how to get there. After the crossing the road thrice, frantically trying to hail a rick; we finally get on a BEST bus no. 214 heading for Reclamation Depot. Well, well, well; guess what? The only people on the bus are the driver, the conductor, Mihir and me!!! Coolness!!! We paid our fares, (A meagre Rs. 4.50) and changed seats again, and again and again till we choose on the last seat, lazing about on them like we owned the bus!!! Coolness!! For the Rs. 4.50 that we paid, we got a 30 minute ride giving us an entire round of Bandra, a glimpse of Bandstand and finally after a series of long turning and winding roads, Bandra Reclamation!!

A big, huge and a deserted Depot met us over there!! We made our way to the Reclamation through a long winding road, blissfully unaware that there was a shorter path out there!!! Anyways, a 5 minute walk later; I found myself staring at a beautiful stretch of water, the sight spoilt by couples making out furiously as if in some sort of a competition...!! PDA's..!!! GROSS!!!! Leaving them to themselves, the two of us made our way to the "buddha buddhi" part of the parapet.

I have always been fascinated by water. That day I learnt the fact that so was Mihir. Initially we just sat there, staring into the beautiful calm and peace of the gentle and soothing waves which stretched out in front of us. A cool breeze blow over the place making it very cozy and very pleasant to sit out there. A sight of a couple of boats tied in the water along with the Mahim part of the sea front was what we could see from our vantage point!!

Beautiful. Mesmerizing. Soothing. Calming. Peaceful. Hypnotic...

I don't know how many times I repeated myself right now, but I couldn't care less. I most probably won't even come close to describing what I felt then. I sat hugging myself while Mihir had his smoke. As the day faded the lights just shone brighter, making the sight even more inviting than ever. The only thing that spoilt the peace and calm were a bunch of voracious and boisterous group of Uncles and Aunties laughing in the most undignified manner of them all!! It was positively scary and very witch like!! (Ya, ya; I have a good imagination!!) After a while, the boisterous bunch made off and peace and calm returned once more. I and Mihir sat there and had a good conversation. We talked about a lot of things. A real lot of things. I thought a lot more than I would normally have, but it is something I really enjoyed doing. I also realized that Mihir thinks a hell lot as well. A bunch of philosopers we are!! [Philosophuckers as my friend would put it but ever mind!! ;)]

We had this little rat and his companion scuttering about in the rocks below the parapet. It sounded quite freaky when they ran though pulling a newspaper behind them..!!! You won't believe the reflexes that Mihir has!! The second time the rat did that; in the blink of an eye, he had lighted a matchstick and thrown it in the direction of the noise..!! So fast he was, that he kinda freaked out the couple next to us. As the rats again did their thing, Mihir threw in another match. The couple next to us, disturbed in the middle of their PDA by a half abuse and a brilliant flash of flame went away in search of a quieter place. Or maybe the matchstick freaked them. Whatever!! We got rid of a noisy couple!! Awesome!! :D

We sat there for some more time. We talked about anything and everything. We actually even discussed cigarette brands!! *Sheepish Grin* We observed people. We followed a streamer in the water with our eyes. We talked some more. I lit a few matches. We enjoyed the lights. We enjoyed the silence. We enjoyed each other's company. We both wished we could have taken a swim. We just idled away time. We found peace and heaven and happiness. :)

We could have just sat under the azure sky for the rest of the night. We could have just dwelled in our silences. We just sat there enjoying the sight and the breeze which had now been sending goosebumps up and down the length of my arms!! And then he asked me something. "Tell me something about you that I don't know." *Sigh* What do I say? All I muttered was that I would have to think upon what to tell you. I eventually never answered that question. But then our silence spoke volumes. A lot more than any heart felt conversation ever could!

As the clock ticked, we made our way to Bandra Reclamation Depot, climbed upon a BEST no. 384 and got down somewhere on Hill Road and made our way toward Bandra Depot (W.) both of us wishing that this lovely evening could have gone on forever. We hadn't enjoyed each other's company with so much peace and happiness in a real real long time.

Listening to: Smack that: Akon feat. EMinem

And you want to know about me?
And then you don’t want to know anymore.
What you know about me scares you,
It changes your definition of loyal,
It gives you new foresight about the word integrity;
It defines strength, headfast and faithful.
It maligns your understanding of truth and honesty;
It underlines the use of the golden words;
It gives you more reason to smile or suppress the smile,
It brings about more laughter and life into your small world;
It broadens your life.
It changes you,
As a person,
As a friend,
And if you think you still want to know more;
Well; don’t complain later that you weren’t warned…!!!

Listening to: Try- Nelly Furtado.


Don't have much to write about.

Maybe I should smile more at people.
Maybe I should start being indifferent to people.
Maybe I should just stop thinking.
Maybe I should just let stuff be.

G'night people. Peace.

¿y pensaste que me conocías?

When was the last time u looked at me and wished you could change it all?
Wished that there was an alternative to all that you could see??
Wished that you could change everything altogether?
The face, the mind, the body, the soul?
Rule the spirit that you couldn’t catch?
Wished you could take some of that cheekiness?
Wished you could mould some of that big grin?
Or just plain wished that you could do away with it all?
Just modify me to something you want me to be?
Crush the spirit?
Break the mind?
Conquer the body?
Distort the vision?
Reconstruct the soul?

I am not what you want me to be,
I can never turn out to be someone to fulfill your vision of me,
I won’t change to keep you happy,
I will be selfish for a change;
I will keep myself happy
I will smile again at people I don’t know,
I will help the heartless,
I will speak my mind;
I will trust the cold and the apathetic once again,
I will give in to temptation once in a while,
I will savor the happiness coming my way;
I will fill my world with intoxicated sanity,
I will regain my old brutal ways again;
I will give an answer back when I am insulted
I will value everyone I meet,
I will not let you stamp my self respect;
I will not let you do away with my dignity
I won’t let you have all the fun at my expense.

And the spirit will be born again,
The crushed soul will revive,
The broken mind will emerge stronger than ever,
The conquered body will self reign again;
The distorted vision will be more focused and sharper than ever.

You think you can do away with all this??
Well; you can try,
I live life by my own rules
And I want to be happy till I die.

Reminds me of these lines by Nelly Furtado from her song try.

All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be.

Peace. \m/

Where will I meet my fate?
Baby I'm a man, I was born to hate
And when will I meet my end?
In a better time you could be my friend.


A bad dream-Keane .

STEREOTYPES: MY ASS

Have you ever gone though the stereotypical and perfect answers given by celebrities when asked simple questions?? Sounds stupid na? All the things they do to avoid rumours and gossip..!!! One would think that this is their way of encouraging it!! :P Would love to see the celebrities answer some of the questions in this manner. Just as they say: Controversy creates cash! :P :P :P

The following set of questions can be found on the Sunday edition of the Mumbai Mirror under the heading People.

LAST TIME I:


Fought with someone:
Well, it was with my ma. She didn't want me to wear that teeny weeny mini skirt... again!!

Laughed:
Guffawed actually. With my sister over dinner last night on a bad joke about err... never mind..!!

Cried:
When I broke up with my guy. I hope that counts. Else erm... I dunno.

Took a local train:
Well, I do that all the time. Guess being famous didn't erase out my passion for trains!! :P I just love the rush, the crowd, the sweat, the heat and the lack of breathing space. It gives me an adrenaline rush. Over and over again!! Hehe


Rode in a cab:
Ummm, two days ago. When my driver called in sick. Now you guys know how much I hate to drive (read: I don't know to drive!) and these long winding roads will kill me one day. God have Mercy!!!!

Took a rickshaw:
Aaahhh... the poor man's cab!!! Well, you wouldn't want me to ride in one of those would you. It is uncomfortable, the seats are not aligned properly, the driver has some song on of my rival actresses and there is no AC!!! No, I don't ride in ricks!!!!

Said 'I love you':
Those three words..!!! Well, firstly to my ma (I wanted to wear that mini skirt you know!!), then to my guy (I wanted a date for my movie premiere) and to my sister(to have her not open her mouth about me..!!!)

Said 'I hate you':
These words.. Well, I use them quite often. My driver, my maid, my watchman, my hairdresser, my make up artist, my cook.. the list is endless..!!!

Lost something precious:
Well, I don't rem'r what was the last thing I lost. I mean I can always buy back what I lose because of the exorbitant fees I charge per film, but I think the last thing precious that I lost was erm.. my CAR..!!! Yes, someone made off with my Car..!!!!!!!

Went on a date:
Well, it was with this fellow who had an awesome script!!! And errr.. don't tell anyone, but I paid the bill :)

Went to a sabzi mandi:
Well, that was like.. duh.. never.. I eat only imported broccoli and carrots. I need my Vitamins. But you surely knew that didn't you??!!!!

Read a book:
Well, I hate reading. I mean apart from scripts I don't even have time to read. I never got quite hooked to reading. I mean my friends tried. But they apparently didn't quite win!!!!

Behaved selfishly:
Well that like all the time. I love myself and am a self proclaimed narcissist!!!

Was embarrassed:
Umm.. sometimes after I end up drinking too much at all these social dos; you know too much alcohol and a lot of unintended things are said and done!! *Giggle*

Had Paani Puri:
I am a health freak. I don't indulge in all these addictive junk foods. They are unhealthy.

Had a wardrobe malfunction:
Errr... Never mind..!! *LOUDLY* Next question.

Went on a long drive:
With my guy off course. We went to marine drive at 2 in the morning :) :)

Cooked food:
Well, I am a pathetic cook.. So You get the picture.. No cooking for me. I can't even boil eggs without burning something. I am not kidding. There was this one time I set my house on fire.. Err... Never mind..... *Big embarrassed grin*

Were home alone:
Well, The last time I got stood up by my friends on a girls night out, I was home alone.

Took a long walk on Juhu beach:
Well, about a week back.. I was walking my dog. I normally don't do such things but after firing the dog walker I had no choice and .....

Shopped till I dropped:
Well well well... Now I like this question. There was this one time I was in New York and I went crazy. I brought brands like Armani, Gucci, Prada, Fendi, Juicy Couture, Moschino, Miss Sixty, D&G, Original Penguin, Mango etc. I ended up buying a lot of formal wear, sunglasses, perfumes, shoes, watches and bags. That was one of the happiest days of my life. *Really big grin :) :) :)*

Lied to someone:
My guy.. when I wanted him to come shopping with me.. Hehehe..


Wouldn't life be more interesting if our "celebs" ever though of answers like these??? Well, it sure would be fun!!!!! Cheers :)


Disclaimer: The entire questionnaire is a pure product of imagination and none of the answers used are quoted by anyone to the best of my knowledge. I hold no responsibility if it happens to be quoted and I am not responsible for the same.

Quote Unquote:

"One needs loneliness to understand and love themselves more."

-Anindita :)